This year I’ve learned how to quiet me Ego so my Soul can speak and be heard. It’s an ongoing practice that requires intention and attention, because the Ego is relentless. It is always talking.
I am fully aware that I cannot make my Ego go away forever. However, I have learned how to become the Observer of its thoughts and how to turn down the volume. These newfound abilities have given me a choice. I can choose to listen or not. I can let its thoughts influence me, or not. This choice use to be made for me, like a default setting in my brain. I am convinced that it was placed there by my Ego. I have removed this setting.
I now have some tools to fight back. This will allow me the ability to regain control. I am pleased to report that at times, I am winning. I have also gained the ability to recognize when I lose, allowing my Ego to win. This mostly occurs when I allow it to do the talking for me. It really wants to be my Chief Marketing Officer since I fired it as my CEO.
A lifetime of scratching and clawing for hard fought wins that required various forms of self promotion are not habits easily unlearned or vacated. This will take time (I’m pretty sure my Ego just wrote this last bit as justification for why I allowed myself to write the post I am about to shine a light on.)
One such example is the post I made the other day about whether I should acquire that beautiful Waterfalls property in Hawaii. My Ego decided to attach the Robb Report article as a visual. One, so you could see the glossy professional photos of the property, and two, to make a flashy statement.
My Ego wanted you all to know that I’m not retired, as it thinks that some people may perceive from my chosen lifestyle and investment decisions these last few years. My Ego wants you to believe that I’m still a serious player. That I’m still operatating. I’m not JUST a Playwright now! 👀(another post, but one that was inspired by my Soul.) The post in question about the Hawaii property was not inaccurate. Since I posted, I have submitted an offer. I’ll know if my bid gets accepted this Friday.
My Ego wants it to be ok to show off as long as what it brags about is accurate. It even sells me on a false narrative that what I’m really doing with posts like it is being transparent and inspirational. My Ego reminds me that there are a lot of posers out there pretending to be successful, lying with abandon to be perceived better than they are performing in life. My Ego wants me to feel superior to them. It thinks I should do this by sharing my wins. The bigger the better!
My newfound presence practice skills did not stop my Ego from making those arguments in my thoughts nor from writing the post. However, if my new CEO - my Soul, were to rewrite the post it would instead write about why I am really attempting to purchase this property.
So, a do-over from my Soul, if you will allow me one!
This property is not just for me at all. It’s for others too. Others that I love and care deeply about. Starting with my incredible wife. Next up, two of my best friends. Third, all my staff at Bliss Island. Fourth, a nee business partner and mentee that has placed a lot of faith in me.
I won’t get into the reasons for each person. I will keep private unless they read this and ask. If they do, my answer will be similar for each. I love you deeply, and as a result, I want to contribute to your dreams, desires and success. I want to be a part of your journeys and grow even closer.
What part is for me? I love getting paid in beauty. This property is truly beautiful. My Soul prompted me to take one special photo of the property. It can’t compete with all the fancy professional photos in the egoic Robb Report, but it inspires me far more. I look at it often. I would like to share it with you.
This is the reason the property is called the Waterfall House. It has its own waterfall within the property. It’s so beautiful it gives me goosebumps. It is located right next to the house structure. When you open the bedroom windows, it creates the most enchanting sounds that I have ever heard on any property. There is a path down to the base of the waterfall where you can swim. You can even bathe if you want. It’s truly magical.
I just named four of my top five ways my soul likes to get paid - gratitude, inspiration, beauty and goosebump moments. These are the real reasons I am attempting to buy it. My friend Evangelia Stavros Leclaire even pointed out that this property was on my vision board way back when. I see that as Bliss Island but leave open the possibility that she is correct. If true, this would mean that it also delivers on my #1 favorite way to get paid - my dreams coming true! I am not attempting to acquire the property to flex my wealth or stroke my Ego.
This is the post I should have written. Maybe one day I will add the ability to write inspirationally only from my Soul. Thus, firing my Ego from another position it covets.
It is my honor to continue sharing my presence practice journey. Thank you for reading.
